The Personal Website of Ammon Dodson
Rational Minds Think Alike
What can I say about this year? It's been crazy--like a rollercoaster. My in-laws have made their position's known. We've been kicked out in the night, and repeatedly told that our marriage will end badly. I guess we just have to not care what they think and prove them wrong anyway.
I was really unhappy the first half of the year waiting to be with my girl. distance is painful for everyone I expect.
2016 casi llega a ser como Ramsay Bolton pero gracias a mi esposo no lo fue. Mi boda no fue lo que en realidad esperaba pero fue especial por que tenía al hombre q amo a mi lado. Conocí a mi padre el cual es una porquería de persona y su esposa es una perra. Aprendí mucho de Ammon y también me hace feliz tener padres Adoptivos. Bueno, lo mejor del año es mi esposo <3
Lo amo :3.
The Year 2016
De alguna manera mi Boda siento que fue compleja y con algunas complicaciones. Pero mi felicidad fue estar a su lado y verlo feliz. Ha sido uno de los mejores momentos que me ha pasado. Me case con un ser imperfecto pero maravilloso. Lo amo con toda mi alma y así sera por siempre. Gracias por estar a mi lado y dar me la oportunidad de formar una familia contigo.
Te amo siempre!
Our Honey Moon
Por fin Solos!!!!! No hay nada comparado con estar sola disfrutando de mi amado esposo, el mar, el calor y la felicidad que siento!
Fue una sorpresa, pensé que no tendríamos luna de miel! Mi esposo me dio una sorpresa y me hizo muy feliz era la primera vez que salia sin familia.
Una experiencia de lo mejor a un lado de mi esposo. Lo malo es que no podíamos ir a la playa que había a un lado por que los vendedores se la pasaban acosando a mi esposo.
Al inicio el olor a sal del mar me causaba nauseas, pero ya después quería pasármela con Ammon recogiendo conchitas. El siempre me hace feliz!
It turns out that Kelly's father is pretty stupid.
Our Own PlaceWe finally found a place that we can afford
Merry Christmas Everyone!!
For the past three weeks or so we've been living in what I think is called a hostel. We're renting a large bedroom and share the kitchen and bathroom with three other rooms on this floor. Someone comes once a week to clean and take out the trash. All the utilities are included, and there's no contract. We rent the room month to month.
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Went shopping today. BBB only accepts cash. Walmart won't let their own employees buy things unless they bring a family member, and only the employee can get a discount. It's pretty much a pain in the butt.
We should be getting into our own place today.
dodson.name is no longer parked; It has been reserved to make the third level domains available. I might be moving there when this domain comes up for renewal.
We have spent several days of the last week out of the house with friends. When we got home with Raquel's father today we were informed, with anger, that we were no longer welcome to stay there even for the night. Even our stuff had to go. Raquel called in a favor, I called in an Uber and we moved out in the night.
I'm beginning to think México can best be characterized as a society of abusers and the abused.
Raquel's Visa petition arrived at my parent's house today.
Been programming a bit. Raquel started work at Walmart yesterday. They pay really poorly down here.
Raquel finished a legal process today that basically says that she is 24 years old and doesn't need child support any more. Apparently here in Mexico, child support and alimony are forever unless you go back to court to have it changed. Instead of an administrative cutoff at some set age there has to be an elaborate and expensive legal process to end it.
Technically, Raquel should have been receiving her child support "pension" separately since her eighteenth birthday. But like everything else in here life, her mother has kept tight control of that money to the present day. She has used it for household expenses, sure. But she has also used that money to continue the legal battle with her ex-husband, to take 2 trips to Europe, and to put Raquel's half-brother through an expensive private school.
Since Raquel is a married adult now, all the lawyers agree that it was only a matter of time before the pension would be canceled anyway. Even so, Raquel's mother, Elena, is royally pissed right now. She sees this as a betrayal. For us, that was expected since it's been God knows how long since she's had to actually work for a living. Even with her pensions and the charity of family, Elena is in debt up to her eyeballs.
By signing that statement Raquel is finally no longer a part of that legal battle. It's not our problem anymore.
We sent Raquel's visa petition today.
There is a small store near the apartment where they sell brand name pet foods by the kilo. Raquel got a job there. We had to travel about an hour and a half yesterday to go to their central office for an interview. The job is 1000-2000 six days a week. Supposedly the one day off is a weekday. Then she has to spend her first two weeks "training" at a different location. Then we find out that ones a week she has to go back to their central office, at night, to report on the week's sales. Then another day of the week she has to stay late at the store to receive shipments of product. They don't pay by the hour, nobody here does, they pay by the month. She decided to quit tonight after her first day.
Hoy cumplimos 2 meses de casados Ammon y yo jeejejeje. Me da mucha felicidad que esté conmigo. También el día de hoy fui a una entrevista de trabajo :3 lo bueno es que me quede con el trabajo.
Las cosas con la familia de mamá aun están mal. Espero que algún día mejoren. A todos ellos los quiero mucho. Soy como la oveja negra de la familia hahaha. Ya quiero conocer a la familia de Ammon. Creo que me voy a llevar muy bien con su mama. Su papa me parece una linda persona.
Quiero hacerlo feliz siempre, tiene mucho potencial no lo digo por ser su esposa, lo digo por como piensa, siente y analiza las cosas. Hace que en verdad no quiera separar me de el. Lo que esta pasando ahora en mi vida solo esta ocasionando que madure. Amo a mis dos padres. Extraño a mis hermanos. Pero es inevitable que las personas tarde o temprano hagan su vida y sean felices. Mi felicidad siempre ha dependido de los estados de humor que mamá u otras personas tenían. Con Ammon estoy teniendo clases de como ser Feliz.
We took photos today.
He estado leyendo el Manual de Matrimonio Eterno. Contiene muchos consejos de como tener un matrimonio feliz. La mayoría de las mujeres que se preocupan por mi, lo que mas me han aconsejado es que: lo mas importante es mi esposo. Comienzo a darme cuenta por que.
Creo que estoy dejando que mis problemas generen discusiones con Ammon. Me di cuenta al hablar con mi tía que si me enfoco en mis problemas terminaré haciendo que nuestro matrimonio pierda amor. La ultima discusión que tuve con Ammon odie que sus palabras estaban llenas de verdad. No se ni entiendo que es lo que pasa conmigo. Estoy guardando mucha culpa. Estoy consciente de que yo he sido la participe de los malos entendidos. Me pesa que se enoje conmigo, cuando es así el amor desaparece de sus ojos y yo no lo quiero tocar porque no me siento merecedora de su cariño. Me siento aun peor porque me enojo conmigo.
Ahora son solo días pesados y lo que me salva cada día es su sonrisa. El me ha enseñado que tener felicidad solo depende de mi; y es algo que tengo que aprender. De lo contrario no podré ser feliz; y no quiero ser feliz solo porque el esta conmigo. Quiero que seamos una pareja de felices. Ammon es lo que mas me importa ahora, así que tendré que hacer a un lado los asuntos de mi familia y enfocarme en hacer lo necesario para ir me con el.
We have gotten several affidavits as part of Raquel's visa petition. I still need to translate two of them. We also need photos. I'm still working at hackster.io. I've started rewriting my data structures library to make it more consistent and complete. I'm also continuing the development of my programming language, currently called Omnicode.
Raquel Rivera nos ayudó a mudar lo demás de las cosas de Raquel de el departamento de Elena. Elena ya ha estado quejando que sus cosas le estorbaba. Raquel propuso hoy el Martes. Elena dijo que toda la familia iba a salir el Lunes para toda esta semana así que iban a dejar sus cosas afuera con el vigilante del edificio. Cuando llegamos hoy por las doce, recuperamos las cosas, pero también el vigilante nos informó que ellos, Elena etc, había bajado las cosas hoy en la mañana. Así que sabemos que no salieron, que de hecho estaban un piso arriba en su departamento. Me parece de muy mala educación ser tan mentiroso.
Luego, que llegamos a casa, percatamos que muchos de las cosas que nos envió estaban sucios. También que había quitado de ellos unas cosas especiales como una discografía completa de los Beatles, y una enciclopedia de pintores famosos. También unos papeles mios.
It's the end of the month!!! This isn't very exiting. Ammon has to go back soon. I've been having a lot of happiness being with him, honestly He's the man I always wanted to be with.
This last days i been cooking things i never did with mom. I spend must of the time with Ammon and Dad, its cool have them with me. Mom is very upset with me, even my brothers don't want talk and as always the only one who is in contact with me its the little chicken.
When i Look at my husband doing programming stuff i just feel becoming like him. Ammon its a very smart guy, i admire him even when i sometimes say he want to know everything. I have the best husband ever and i will never be tired to tell this with happiness.
I'm working online, editing posts at hackster.io.
Somos del barrio Bosque de Tlalpan.
A few weeks ago, on my second failed attempt to get my visa status changed, I found out that the whole process will cost about $5000 MX ($250 US). Considering how bureaucratic everything is here, there really is no such thing as a well paying temporary position. Most jobs I could get easily pay around $15 MX / hr. (about $0.75 US). Therefore, the idea of getting a quick job in Mexico becomes rather pointless. Getting a job was the only reason to try to change my visa status. My visitor visa will expire some time in March. So I will have to be back before then. That's just fine with me; I have classes to make up. Any minimum wage job in the US can out produce anything I can get here.
I've been applying to freelance jobs on Upwork for the last couple days.
I have the best girl ever.
Went for a walk today. Found the local Chapel. It's the rainy season. It rains every afternoon.
It occurs to me that if it weren't for all the money that Elena
borrowed or outright stole, we would be able to start Raquel's visa process already.
Passed the day listening to music. Raquel is a very good cook; we've been eating very well.
Filling out Job applications in México I can't help but laugh at some of the ridiculous questions they ask. Like they want to know the names addresses and occupations of the applicants parents, the names and ages of one's children.
"Do you play a sport?"
"What's your favorite pass-time?"
"Where did you go to elementary school?"
"how much is the rent on your house?"
"If you own your house, how much is it worth?"
"Do you have other income? If so, how much?"
"Do you have life insurance? With who, and how much?"
"Do you have any debts? with who? how much?"
"Who do you live with? How many people depend on you?"
"Height? Weight? Attach a Photo."
Just Imagine everyone throwing around information like that in a country with pretty severe inequality and it becomes obvious why there are so many robberies and kidnappings.
Desde aquel día que vi a papa varias cosas han cambiado en mi vida, mi papa trata muy bien a Ammon y a Betty igual, a nube le cuesta estar con nosotros es algo rara pero esta linda :3.
En cuanto a el tramite de Ammon y el mio no hemos avanzado mucho. Necesitamos trabajo. Espero que ya en la próxima semana tengamos internet. Así será mas fácil de sobre llevar los gastos y ahorrar para todo lo que necesitamos hacer. En verdad quiero que Ammon pueda terminar la escuela y yo también tengo la motivación de terminar una Licenciatura.
De alguna manera no se porque aun no estoy muy consciente de esto: de que estoy casada, no se cuando me caiga el 20 pero en verdad amo a mi esposo y lo quiero cuidar de la mejor manera. Últimamente he aprendido mucho de el. El es muy comprensivo, cuando discutimos siento horrible mas por como me mira cuando se irrita, eso hace que se congele todo el cuerpo, me da por llorar. No se como reaccionar ante ciertas cosas, hay mucho que aprender de esta nueva experiencia. De lo que puedo estar segura al 100% es de que me quiero sellar con mi esposo y que no lo cambiaría por nadie. Para mi no hay nadie mejor que el y planeo estar con el siempre <3...
El día de hoy desperté algo temprano, trate de despertar al flaco pero me volví a quedar dormida. Le preparé de desayunar. En verdad disfruto mucho cocinarle y saber que le gusta lo que cocino. Después de eso Ammon comenzó a ver Star Trek y yo comencé a limpiar y me maquillé. Salimos al bosque; es muy lindo ir con el a caminar. Es un hombre encantador...
Mi papá salio a trabajar. No se porque cuando el sale a trabajar lo extraño mucho. Claro que también a mama. Ella a sido mi compañera todos estos años , aunque no ha sido fácil el trato con ella. Ahora disfruto de la compañía de mi Esposo, mi papa y Betty, su esposa, y eso me hace feliz aparte de que las cosas parecen estar bien con mi mama...por el momento.
Es un día mas aquí en casa de papa, Ammon y yo tenemos una semana aquí y mi papa es una linda persona en verdad no es lo que yo creía.
Me case con Ammon el 10 de Septiembre del año en curso, no fue una boda fácil, en especial por mi compleja madre. No por ello creo que ella sea mala. Mis dos hermanos no fueron del todo un soporte pero creo que al final les ayudo el consciente a darse cuenta que su hermana se estaba casando y mas por que soy la única hermana que tienen, lloraron en la boda y al decir verdad los amo con todo mi corazón.
I've been reading books--glad I brought them.
I'm happy cause I'm meeting better my dad he is a nice person, my husband is here also, its weird all of this... but makes me happy. we are living with dad, he's a nice person, and also his wife, he is helping me to remember things we did together, also Ammon my sweet husband is here helping me to be better every day, for me he's the best man I can ever have in my life. mom isn't here, i miss my brothers a lot...hope they soon stop being angry at me. I love you Ammon.
Wonderful family complexities.
Quiero agradacer a mi nueva familia por lo que hacen por nosotros. Agradezco a Ellena y a Nazir por la boda que se hizo y la comida de ella. Estuvo muy bueno todo. Tambien quiero agradacer a mamá Lolis y a Tio Nahum por hacernos un espacio ya que estamos empezando nuestra vida juntos y no tenemos mucho. Tambien a Raquelito por su apoyo y por darnos de comer. Gracias a todos por ser tan amigable.
We tried to start the process to get my status changed from visitor to temporary resident, but it turns out I filled out the wrong paperwork so we have to try again later.
2016.SEP.11 ~ 16
We honey mooned in Acapulco at the Holiday Inn Resort.
We could hardly leave the hotel without being accosted by people trying to sell anything from massages to thirty year vacation packages. Let me take this opportunity to state for the record that I hate salesmen. I find the deceptive tactics and false friendship offensive and morally repugnant.
Arrived in México City.
Children raised in a sterile environment will grow weak and inept. whether that sterility is of the microbiological kind or of a moral kind. The child raised in the expectation of piety is the rebellious child or often the adult the knows the right result, but has no experience on how to achieve it. A sterility of work engenders a lack of ambition.
Raquel's B visa petitions have been denied. A K or CR visa will take the better part of a year to process. So I'm going to be staying in México for a while. Although that's not a very gratifying situation either. We will have to live with her mother, likely. I don't know what the job market looks like. It's far too late to apply for a school there. I don't know how hard it will be to come back to school in the US, but considering how empty my program is they should be happy to have me back.
I'm packing my things and hope to be able to leave them with my parents. I know that's probably a stupid idea, but I don't want to leave them here with the Zechenelly's. I like them, Ben is like the non-psychotic brother I never had. But nobody else seems to accept me living here, and I want to avert the otherwise inevitable future "I've come to rummage through your house and take anything I think is mine" visit.
Anyway, I have a flight for SEP.7, and I have no idea when or if I'll be back. I'm getting married on the 10th, Elena is planning everything. I don't know what it's costing.
I bumped into Chanelle early this morning. It was strange in that I didn't feel anything, but the familiarity was still there I am still accustomed to behaving and responding in a particular way even after the reasons for that behavior are long gone. I don't miss her, but I miss living with a woman. She has been different the other times I've seen her. As she changes it is easier for me to believe that she is a different person and so easier to keep a good distance. But today she dressed and behaved as she always used to: clearly a show for her family since she had been visiting relatives.
I started working at Walmart again. I'll be here for the summer.
Still in Tacoma, Looking for a job. I really don't want to do fast food again, and I'm hoping to find something full-time that I can transition to part-time when school starts. And then their's the issue of I needing to disappear for a couple of weeks in September. Life gets pretty hard in the US without a job.
Getting back to my compiler development now that my circuits final is done. I've pushed my current code up onto github. I also pushed up my boot stub from a few months ago.
I'm just done trying to make Libre-Office, or any other Open Office derivative work properly. And Thus I will always be tied to a windows VM just for running MS Office. Office software, really any professional software must be reliable. Reliability might actually be a first priority. Even if a piece of software is inadequate, having it available whenever it is needed is essential to being productive. I hate fighting with the tools.
This one might actually be in my price range some day.
Simply put, after the Missionary Training Center in Provo, school is just boring. Other schools simply can't measure up. I learned a language in 2 months. They use a 24/7 schedule of small hands-on classes with an expert, and occasional large lectures. They have designated study times and assigned study partners, scheduled meal, gym, and sleep times. The end result is highly motivated and accelerated learning. By comparison universities are boringly slow, the students either apathetic, or highly competitive, the instructors disinterested. There is no recognition here for personal excellence, only "good grades", designed to measure only what the current course is targeting.
So I've been showing this video to just about everybody lately. It seems pretty clear that the United States is structurally sound.
Mr. Zeihan claims that our various cheap capital bubbles that we've had lately have been, and will continue to be caused by the baby boomer generation investing for retirement. As contributorily as that may be, he makes no mention of the fact that the prime interest rate has been held at zero for years.
The 0 prime really has one purpose. Whether it is to enable the massive deficit of a government completely unable to reign in its spending, or to enable private purchases, the object is the same: to prop up the lower-middle class consumer economy.
In aggregate the US economy has recovered quite nicely from the 2006 recession. But, as has been noted elsewhere almost all of the recovery has been in the large corporations and the ultra rich.
The main reason for the continuing difficulties in the years after the recession is primarily caused by less employment. The unemployment rate may have recovered, but only because many unemployed people are no longer looking for work. The Bureau of Labor Statistics labels them discouraged workers. In reality the percentage of the population that is employed has fallen from it's 2000 high, and hasn't even really tried to recover.
To be fair of course it has been lower in the past. Significantly lower in the 50's and 60's, commonly known as a golden age in America. In fact, the rise of job market participation in the 70's and 80's might be largely attributable to the entrance of the boomer generation into the job market, causing a depression of labor rates, and the necessity of two income families.
Consider another cause of economic pressure: land. Long gone are the days when any average person could own dozens of acres of valuable land. Americans as a percentage of income are spending more and more on housing. Finding suitable housing within good proximity of jobs and schools is becoming increasingly difficult and expensive. Part of it is a shortage of land, but part of it also is an ever increasing construction standard. Even the most modest dwelling must use ever more expensive materials and construction methods. Any one who has renovated an older home knows that often entire systems must be replaced because they no longer meet current code.
Cars are in a similar situation, where rising regulatory costs have driven the price of a new car out of the range of a minimum wage income. Car and housing prices are both the victims of the social imposition of risk management, where each individual, regardless of their personal intent, is forced to meet a standard of safety or energy efficiency imposed by the majority. In short, it is no longer possible to live simply in the United States.
More realistically though, much of the perceived economic difficulty today is probably caused by people expecting to be able to live with all the modern conveniences, but work as if it were still 1960. Many people still act as if they can live well with a high school education. Many people act as if base labor jobs still exist, let alone pay well.
US worker productivity has, and continues to grow dramatically. Today one person does the work that took hundreds before, and can buy things that would have taken the combined income of those hundreds, assuming of course, that such a product existed at all. The cause of this increase in productivity is capital investment. Using machinery, factories, education, and computers allows one person to do the work that would have taken a small army before. The entrance ticket to this world of automation is a meaningful education. Arts degrees don't cut it.
I spent this weekend with my parents. Still spent most of it talking to and playing League of Legends with Raquel.
I got 95% on my circuits midterm.
I need to write more or my front page is going to disappear.
Happy Cinco de Mayo Everybody!
U.S. Congressman Derek Kilmer visited the University of Washington campus for a security conference. He had two aides (security?) with him. He came and went without fanfare that I could see. What surprised me the most though is that nobody recognized him. There was no reaction or interest from the students here.
We had a block party with free pizza on the UW campus.
I took my first electrical circuits midterm today. Would have aced it too, if I had remembered how to handle a super-mesh.
The Tacoma stake split last week, and today was the first meeting of the new Commencement Bay ward.
Why do I attack your posts so often you ask. It is simply because you make yourself such an easy target. You don't think before you speak, and it shows in what you say. Unfounded opinion, and emotion are the bane of mankind, and the clear root to all that is wrong in society. They are to be suppressed and eliminated whenever possible. Such can be the only wise and ascending course.
We have too much a tendency to build our actions on vain hopes rather than clear realities. Unproven stories, especially when emotionally charged, are passed from person to person. Unquestioned they are taken as fact and become part of the popular world-view. Such images and fantasies form the basis of angry rhetoric and ugly decisions.
What most people fail to do is learn the lesson that revolutionized the world centuries ago, namely proving every fact before believing it. Such a personal policy of ensuring the truth of a thing before believing it is the only way for a person to be honest with themselves and others. This is the scientific method in essence. Although the word "scientific" brings with it many emotional connotations that I would avoid here. I am speaking of honesty, integrity if you will.
I personally would prefer the cool grays of honesty to the warmth of your emotional lies.
I've been experimenting with computer's boot process. I built a small multiboot compatible image using nasm and a gcc cross compiler.
Homework is essential for practicing concepts. I assign a lot of it. Start early and ask questions early. I do not grade every single problem I assign.
Homework will be graded on the correctness and the clarity of solution. Imagine you're writing the solution so that a classmate can read it and understand it thoroughly without having to ask for clarification.
- Write legibly!
- Show your work thoroughly.
- Turning in your R code does count as showing your work, but I will not read R output for final answers. You must use correct mathematical notation to express your final answer. Remember to round! I will not accept numbers without explaining what the number is. If appropriate, units are also required.
- Each problem must appear on a separate page, within reason--if problems are short, you can put them on the same page. If it is along problem, it should be on its own page.
- You must submit any R code you use. This code must be documented with comments explaining what the code does. If you copy and paste it from R, I suggest using a fixed-width font for it, such as Courier New.
- Your name, the homework assignment, due date, and section should appear in the upper right-hand corner of the like this:Julie Eaton Homework 1 January 1, 2016
- If you tear your homework from a notebook, you should cut off the "frilly" part that's left over.
- Your homework should be stapled in the upper left-hand corner. No fancy folding/tearing to replace a staple. Paperclips are dangerous because your assignment might get stuck to someone else's.
- You may work with others, but the solution you submit must be originated and written by you.
- IF YOU ARE UNABLE TO MAKE CLASS, YOU MAY TURN IN A "PROOF" OVER E-MAIL OR CANVAS, BUT YOU STILL MUST TURN IN THE ORIGINAL HARD-COPY. I WILL NOT TAKE TIME TO PRINT OUT EACH PAGE YOU SEND. IF IT IS SENT IN AN EASILY PRINTABLE PDF DOCUMENT, I WILL PRINT IT OUT.
I am Ammon Dodson. I usually go by Ammon. Ammon is probably an egyptian name "Amon-Ra". My parents were weird. Most people are uncertain about pronunciation and I've grown accustomed to that. The best pronunciations are: <Ămmĭn> or <Ămmŏn> with any stress on the first vowel. I blame English dictionary writers for our lax spelling and pronunciation rules. But to be fair our alphabet is also wholly inadequate as American English has no less than 10 vowels.
I grew up all over the country. Often "home schooled" for fear of the government. I have rejected, or been rejected by most forms of social, institutional, or familial support. I have no real place to call home. I will be the first in my family to have a college degree.
I am a transfer student so on the books I am a junior, but I am generally taking sophomore level classes. I am working towards BS CES which has enough math requirements in it to also fulfil a minor in math.
I do very poorly with weekly homework. The problems are always tedious and without application, in short boring. The time frame is to short to work them at leisure, yet too long to be motivating. I have already failed MATH 307, 308, and my last stats class because of homework grades.
I do much better with quizzes, tests, and larger projects. I have done much better with weekly quizzes, weekly group lab reports (5-12 pages), and larger math projects (Mathematica files) with several weeks lead time. I have also done fairly well with weekly homework at my last school where I had a group of friends and we did homework together. Here I don't really know anybody, and I don't make friends easily.
- Classroom time is the most motivated time a student has.
- Many forms of reliable and convenient information recording and reproduction are availible.
- The majority of learning happens during application: learning by doing.
Studying for finals.
I hate homework. Homework generally has a week or less from the time it's assigned to the time it's due. It's usually arbitrary.
My Keyboard is better than yours. Lero Lero!
Parties, well wishes, courtesy calls, trinket gifts, and idiomatic expressions, all irrational things for which I have little understanding nor patience.
So last Thursday,18 I went to a UW internship fair and met some great people doing some exciting things.
Be the marker. You are the marker. Where are you from? What do you want in life?
Words you might expect in... an acting class? But, these were words spoken in TWRT 291 Technical Communication at the University of Washington.
TWRT 291 Technical Communication in the Workplace (5) C
Teaches objective-oriented and audience-centered communication for the workplace, while focusing on key genres of technical communication -
reports, proposals, manual, and document design - essential for success in the professional world.
I took Tech Comm because I am an engineering student. I enjoy writing and reading about ideas. I like stuffy
it speech. At times I will read white papers or specifications just for the fun of it. Imagine my surprise when we are told that technical writing is boring and
we're going to do something more interesting.
Lets get something straight: I avoid writing about myself. I rarely express an opinion. This is a habit I have, and it is precisely why I am very nearly always right. I don't care about emotions and other fluffy non-things. So when I walk in to a class that openly throws the program out the window it might adjust my assessment of the class, my instructor, maybe even my school. We might as well circle-up and talk about our feelings while we're at it.
I dropped the class. I'm allowed to do that once a year. So I have avoided having to grapple with the existential crises of binder clips.
Soooo. I've been having these random bouts depression. I wrote a bunch of crap on my home page, and it's interfering with my school work. I've had to drop Tech Comm already.
It's dark out. Sometimes I would really just like some bright light. My opinion of this world is not very high. A world where drama and stupidity are esteemed above reason. I have yet not found a place for myself. We could argue that I should make one. I have never been a leader. Is that so wrong? Was that something I was supposed to be born with?
Supposed? by whom?
I am not the problem. Nobody is born with anything. A successful society must carefully develop each new generation if it is to survive. Surely if a child fails to succeed, especially a child with exceptional talent, then it is society that has failed. It is also clear that there is no such thing as collective responsibility.
I've been sick all week. I am not doing well in my classes. I'm just not feeling it some days. I'm so sick of lower division coursework. My drive is gone or going.
I have exceptional ideas. But do I have the talent to implement them? I may, but do I have the dedication and drive to pull it off? experience indicates that I do not. Even if I were to produce something exceptional, would the world recognize it? Would its value be known? Would it just be stolen for corporate profits?
On the list of things that could change the world, this should rank highly: Electromagnetic Propulsion
I live in a world that seems to have no use for me.
New site location at http://students.washington.edu/ammon0/. It's rather broken.
Why do I waste time doing pointless things to avoid doing important things that I am completely bored with?
- I feel bad
- I don't fit into any particular group
- I have separated myself from groups and I think this causes me guilt
- I am compulsively compliant and deferential
- I don't have many preferences, or at least can't remember them when I could make a decision
- I don't like to deal with people past a scripted transactional exchange
- I feel bad when I receive recognition
- I feel bad whether I win or lose, so I prefer not to compete
- I am constantly bored
- I am constantly distracted, yet I can focus for hours on mindless garbage
- I tend to do everything to excess: food, video games, anything that can distract me.
- I rarely feel much of anything, either I don't have feelings or I am unaware of them. I am not sure if this is an undesirable condition.
It might be time to cast off, let go of the boat, jump off the cliff. It's dangerous, uncomfortable, uncharted territory. But virtually every cultural, or social institution has failed me or cast me out. Maybe, it's time to design a new person, because this one clearly doesn't belong anywhere. It is a very American idea, but then again, I was born here.
I posted a certified copy of my marriage dissolution. Last year is over.
Finally a paperless writing class.
Starting new classes this quarter: Differential Equations, and Technical Writing.
I arrived in Seattle, right around midnight, to a fanfare of fireworks. Glad to know you all missed me so much.
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